His life should have been as happy as a dream.
But there is evidence that his married life, even before
the pivotal event that we are about to recount, was not entirely
free from trouble. This
conjugal trouble was not the usual love-hate struggle, or
personality conflicts, but some internal demon – a crisis
of mental or spiritual problems – within Choyong himself.
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Choyong's
distinctive features are portrayed in this ancient
mask.
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Choyong
seemed at times to be desperately lonesome. His loneliness seemed even more pronounced
than when he had lived by himself.
Why he felt so unhappy, even in the middle of sweet
and sweaty cuddles, he himself did not know.
But witnesses recount that even in the middle of
a presumably happy married life, he lapsed occasionally
into solitary brooding or wandered aimlessly through the
streets. On such occasions, quite a few overheard him
muttering to himself. His
comments were largely unintelligible, but some claimed to
have overheard him asking himself, “What is love? What is
family?”
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The
five Ch'oyong dancers perform before the governor
of Pyongan during the Yi dynasty, as portrayed in
this eighteenth-century Korean painting.
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We do not know whether Choyong’s rather peculiar behavior had anything to
do with his subsequent marital trouble. Nor do we know exactly
when the couple’s conjugal relationship began to sour.
But it began to be rumored that Choyong’s married
life was in deep trouble because of a third party.
His wife had taken a lover.
Some claim that Choyong’s wife was continuing an illicit relationship established
before her marriage (not an uncommon practice at that time);
others say that she took a new lover after the marriage. Nevertheless, Choyong was visibly pained. His agony was sometimes unbearable to those
who were near him. This
noble and powerful man was suffering from profound inner
conflicts.
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